Hi
Everyone!
I hope
everyone is doing well. It has taken so much courage to write this post today.
I had reserved all of December 2018 for blogging and videos and ended up doing
neither. I did, however, film and upload some vlogmas content but it’s so far
the least watched videos on my channel, so that was a bust. So thinking of
blogging again became a distant memory and I just carried on lazying around the
house until work started in 2019.
In a
way, I’m disappointed in myself for ‘wasting’ all that time but on the other
hand, I got to spend some real quality time with my family and nothing is
better than that. Since 2019 started I’ve been seeing a lot of people really
seeing value in themselves and hustling more than ever. I think 2018’s anxiety
& depression scare really made people wake up and realise that they’ve only
got one life and they need to make the best of it.
Personally,
I’ve had my own ‘wake up’ as well. Last year, I was riddled with guilt for
turning back on a career that I’ve spent 8 years of my life on. I was mad at
myself that I didn’t value myself enough while I was there which resulted in my
assessments not being dealt with accordingly and I also blamed myself and
regretted that I didn’t get out sooner. These days all I do is forgive myself
for this daily.
I
completely let go of my physical value last year. I was eating A LOT of friend
chicken, lots of soda, lots of wine which ended up being lots of cocktails. I
never exercised. Then a time came where I just threw clothes on, not a care in
the world on what I looked like or how I was being perceived. I now have a lot
of cellulite on my thighs and I can’t get away with wearing short dresses (for
now). Even though I haven’t made plans yet, I feel like my mind has now come
around to accepting that I can do exercises at home.
Work is
better this year because half my workload was given to someone else. This now
gives me more time to be present. Last year, I had to run to each and every
class and I was only half prepared for each of them. I intend to use my new
free space to be the most prepared teacher to my students because I want them
to learn as much as possible and to have good, prepared fun! LOL!
I think
2019 has to be different for a lot of us because we’ve tried a whole bunch of
things that completely failed. Whether it’s a youtube channel, a blog, an
Instagram page, an online business, a podcast, a brand deal or a collaboration.
But, we keep going because time waits for no man. And we can’t all be
successful in everything we do. Even people we look up to know had a lot of
failed ventures before becoming what they are. Sometimes it takes expanding,
demolishing, rebranding or other techniques for an idea to work and become a
business.
What
I’ve seen is that people are tired of letting one failure define them.
Be that
person. Try again.
Start
writing again, filming again, making those phone calls again, recruiting again
or come up with a new idea! Either way, let’s get up and go!
With
love,
