Hi everyone!
I think I owe you guys an update!
So recently I started a new job and it’s been quite
stressful. Let me be clear though I like what I do and it’s what I went to
school for. I think at the time I got it I had run out of options and felt
really bad that I couldn’t contribute to my family. Also at the time - everyone
was pretty much getting back from the holidays so money was really really
scarce. So I decided to pause my ‘figure my life out plan’ and basically grow
up.
So it’s an 8-5 job errday type of job and I honestly have to
say that I’ve never been so tired in my life. I thought that I was tired during
university but now I realize that I was soooo kidding myself. Luckily my new
team isn’t that big which I guess has its pros and cons. Some days I wish that
there were more so that there’s (I guess) a chance that there’s a person with
my sort of personality. If I could describe them I’d probably say that they are
extremely technical, numerical and focused, which is not unusual in this sort
of environment. This just means that I’m just all alone in a group of people
five days a week.
I’m so grateful to God because I feel like getting here was
just prayer and God showing me favour. When we underwent training there was a
lot of people there who were talking about some of their friends who were still
looking for a job. One of my best friends is also looking and she’s qualified
so this was totally relatable. I’m a huge believer in the relief you experience
when you cry - so every night when nothing went well during the day I’d reserve
the nights for sobbing. Not the depressing kind though because on each new day
I was just ready for new things!
So what’s next for my blog? I’ve been asking myself this
question so many times because since I started working I leave before the
glorious crack of dawn and return home wayyyy after sundown. And so far I’ve
had zero time for shoots or reviews or hauls or any of my favourite things! It
just truly breaks my heart to live this way! Worst part is – there is really
nothing I can do about it until I move closer to work and I have no idea when
that will happen right now.
So I just need you guys to know that I’m alive!! I’m just in
another phase in my life where I have to pay bills and stuff! I hope that we
can grow this year because now I will actually be able to do hauls more often
and sort of grow into the style that I identify with!
Lots of Love!!
<3
The struggle. .. it takes a while to get used to having a full time job right after college...anyway I hope you get a place closer to work soon.
ReplyDeletethank you stayc!! I hope so too!! Just need to push through the last few days!!
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