Hi everyone!
I hope everyone’s good!! In the past week I’ve gone through
a lot of emotions. I think most of them were pure anxiety and I have to express
how tiring it is. But I’ve kept my head down and continued working. However a
voice inside of me kept creeping through
…this is NOT where you belong..
I feel so suffocated and if given the chance I would either
let out a scream of frustration or just weep like Mary.
So with our new client I was brought in to replace a
colleague because he wasn’t being effective (or so I was told) so coming in I
already had so much doubt and confusion and one feeling that was at 90% was
definitely RESISTENCE.
It’s been 2 weeks now and even though it’s a work in
progress I just find myself so left-handed. I have so many things to do and I
feel like I’m working without any assistance on work I’ve never done before.
Every day I just want to resign just so that I can get a break but it just
seems like there’s a lot of negative consequences to doing that.
So I dream. And try to plan. Even if it’s a small dream and
a small plan. Just so that I don’t feel so lost. I’m turning 24 in about 2
months and I’m really looking forward to big changes. So in this process I’ve
learnt a couple of things.
·
Always stay in touch with things that are in
line with what you want to do. Either through social media platforms or people
that are involved in it. This keeps the conversation going in your mind. And
you never get left behind.
·
Allocate time. There’s never enough time in a
day to get everything done. However if you have a set schedule it’s easier to
get things done because I’m one of those people who don’t know when I woke up
and what I did all day by the time I get to bed. I mean what a waste of time!
·
Take Risks. This is the hardest part but
honestly there are just no rewards without it! It’s really about identifying
opportunities and just grabbing them with both hands. There’s a lot of things
that can go wrong, obviously, but the point should be that you attempted
something. Not that you won or became victorious in it.
·
Be authentic. How can people take you seriously
if you always do half-baked things? It’s so easy to just become average but
we’ve been made to be more than that. So never do things for the sake of doing
it, let everything that you do be a true reflection of what you’re passionate
about and what you’re trying to let people know about you.
·
Pen it. Being a full time employee in a field
that require accuracy and full focus it’s not easy to make time to do what I
love so in order to keep my dreams alive I just write stuff down whenever the
idea comes to me so that I don’t forget it. In that way it’s always in my mind.
·
Repeat it. A dream dies when no-one talks about
it. It’s a fire that you need to keep fanning so that it doesn’t die out. So if
your dreams are under your blanket or in your pocket – that is where they’ll
always remain. Always work towards them. At night. Over the weekend. Anywhere,
anytime.
·
Your people. Stop wasting time with people that
only want to gossip all day long. I mean it’s good to laugh with friends and
have wine and snacks but you can’t be wasting your time with that all day long.
Have a quick meaningful catch up sesh and then it’s back to the hustle.
It’s hard work to keep dreaming but without hope we’re just
waiting around to die. So always reach for something. There’s always the next
level, the next opportunity!
Live your life!
